I just realized it. When I became a mother, I knew what I was in for. I knew about the responsibilities and I was ready for them. I was ready to put my wants on hold to make sure my kids were taken care of. I know, you're about to tell me that I need to take care of myself too. That by taking care of myself I will have more to give to them. And yes! Absolutely. But I didn't realize that being a mother also gave me a reason, an excuse really, to back out of things that were scary or an obstacle to accomplish. Take this blog for example. I both wanted the enthusiasm and encouragement from you to keep me going, but at the same time I didn't. I was afraid of meeting your expectation, because in reality I was tired.
I recently started a weekly vlog to keep family and friends informed and amused with what happens in my life when I can't be there to share it with them each day. It's a weekly snapshot which I endearingly refer to as the 'upside of downtime'. It's me and my family, outside of work, hockey and other commitments. It's just us, and we're usually at home. Of course that may change, I may take it on the road or mix it up a bit (I likely will) but for now that's what it is.
And as I sit here collecting my tabs on the virtual world I stumbled across my old blog. My faithful, encouraging and motivating blog. When reading through your comments I was reminded of the strength that comes when people come together for a common purpose. My common purpose was the pursuit of fitness.
That pursuit changes as we move through our lives. While fitness is still important to me, now family and karma seem to be so much more. So I will no longer officially be blogging about fitness. Instead, I will be blogging and vlogging and posting (oh my!) about the other things that define me. So who am I? I thought about it and determined that I am the following, in no particular order, although likely certainly more top-weighted:
- mother
- accountant
- Simmer
- fitness enthusiast
- artist
- friend
- animal lover
And there are other things that I strive to be:
- karaoke-star
- guitarist
I'm sure there's more! You are welcome to continue to follow me as I explore this new multi-directional view of my life. I will be writing and sharing with you ideas and stories related to who I am today and who that person may be in the future. Who knows, that's why it's a living, breathing, moving thing we call life.
